I've been asking you for weeks for help.
But you're not helping
If you were helping it would be different.
And I just want to finish this comic. I've been saying that all along... why aren't you listening to me?
I don't think it is a good habit to abandon things you start. No one is listening to that I am going to finish it and go back to what I am doing before.
I am so stressed out by you
because you don't listen or help.
You don't listen
You're in your own little world that doesn't include giving love and affection or listening to me
You don't believe in the power of love at all.
It shows
I fucking hate this. Everyone harasses and bugs me like they own my life, but where do I spend my time? In a room alone. They don't come visit or care I'm alone
Good ol me, always reliable, waiting at the computer to jump at their beckon call.
Who cares if I have to spend all my time alone and every holiday alone... everyone can overlokk that because I'm just some internet person. I don't exist beyond the internet as a person to anyone.
I think you guys are all being inhumane dicks about everything. No, I'm not going to do what you say all the time, fuck you
If you cared, you'd be here
You wouldn't just treat me like an internet person. I'm not an internet person here to follow your every command.
Sitting by the computer
You all take me for granted
Who gives a shit if the internet person spends Christmas alone
Who cares if the internet person has no money for food or a problem.
Who cares
Go away
more one-way conversations below...
118 comments:
I was wondering if you know where to find that particular episode of terrytoon's Mighty Mouse.
Whelp! Time to drive another fourty-miles to Laguna Beach!
hi john, what kind of brand of pen do you use when u make those doodles with those slick lines, like in this upload...
http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-b1SxG72ufOo/UKWYfRppowI/AAAAAAAA0d8/dHbWuxnWuHM/s1600/0_10.jpg
i have been trying for awhile to learn how u do it
Terrytoons mix the cute and the mentally challenged in the best of ways
It was awesome to see your artwork and meet you and your daughter in person, your art has influenced me profoundly!
Nice outfit! I love that vintage patterned shirt.
Where do you get your hair cut? Most animators your age just wear old t shirts and have grey hair... but not John K... he's looking sharp!
http://www.lcad.edu/ren-and-stimpy-creator-john-k-making-encore-appearance-at-lcad-on-forest/
I also saw you drinking a Diet Coke at the show. I used to drink that, but I switched to tea because it has less caffeine.
Not that this stuff matters really, AT ALL
It's dumb to get hung up over trivia, don't you think?
The elderly grandma moved in yesterday and I'm being kicked out.
So....
Go down to the animation school
and find a new pet project
if that's what you want
I want a real relationship
where people talk to each other
and aren't reduced to this
You're not being helpful
Until you are perfect you have no right to criticize me constantly
And you're obsessed with age
you are
All day I asked you what to say
Didn't I?
You don't communicate with me
Not real communication
Just commands
It's not like I'm not trying over here
I'm not just a pet project
I'm a person here
I'm a person and this is the only way I can directly communicate with my bf
which may or may not make him inexplicably freak out on me
Why does it matter?
If what you have been promising is true, and I'm sure it is
then why would you freak out?
Anyways... that's it
All I want to do is be able to talk to you
You get so paranoid about me leaving you for "young bucks" and other such nonsense
If you would just communicate directly with me more, you'd never worry about that
It's not spam when your gf talks to you
If I can't even talk to you directly without it being called spam
then why do you have a gf at all?
Think about all the barriers you put up all the time
You act all paranoid about me talking to other people, when you won't talk to me yourself
It makes zero sense
I only wrote stuff here because this is the only place where I can reach you
And who's fault is that?
Spam indeed
Even if I have friends
or family
I'll never love anyone as much as I love you
or in the same way
This is very important
not spam
remember it
You need to man up sometimes John
and and be there for me when I need you
for all the times you complain about me being immature in various ways
you have no right to act like a 12 year old when it comes to responsibility
I don't really think you are like a 12 year old
I think you are great
I was just frustrated because you weren't helping me the way I wanted you to
but that's my problem
I need real affection
not just a computer screen
Did you ever stop and think, that I am trying to clean bugs off of you?
You have them
The bug of inaffection and not thinking REAL affection is important
the bug of distance and putting up walls and making yourself hard to reach
The bug of bullying
and more
there's no space for these bugs in our marriage
I am trying to tell you stuff but I cannot, because I have no way of getting in touch with you
don't misunderstand me, the only reason I write stuff here is because you have shut yourself off so tight that this is the only place I can even talk to you
that's a problem
I am very thankful for how much you care about my drawing
I know you care very much about it, and I appreciate that
but sometimes I think you may unknowingly neglect some other things that are very important in my life
like the problem of my living situation and how much stress it is causing me
If someone is an alcoholic
and you suck off the teat of the alcoholic,
doesn't that mean you have fetal alcohol syndrome?
It's not the action of someone with high moral character
Plus their elderly mother is moving in, and can't until I am out of the house
John this is getting to be too much. I am being harassed constantly about finding a new place, and you have me stranded here, and you're not even explaining why.
This problem is getting worse every day, and it all stems from the fact that I have to cover up and hide our relationship.
I do not believe in lying, but I have to lie constantly because you force me to hide our relationship and the truth about my life.
This is not ok, and I need your help, you're just hiding away and leaving me in a very bad spot.
It doesn't matter who the person is.. whether they are an alcoholic or the pope or a junkie in the gutter, it's not ok to lie to them
But I don't know what to say or do, because you're not really communicating your plan to me
I think you are being irresponsible, and I'm the one who has to sweep up after it.
And you don't have to deal with any consequences because you are not here with me.
I don't know what to do, and I have been asking for your help for days and you have been avoiding me
Showing me pictures of bears doesn't help. That's what you do to a child
I'm an adult
an adult who is forced to lie about her true life on a daily basis
lie about her love
and her man
these are all adult things
I'm not a 5 year old
You lie with ease all the time
I'm not like that
Lying makes me feel terrible inside.
Until you can see me as an adult woman, we will never really progress in our relationship.
It's like a form of denial, always treating me like a child.
Why are you taking pictures of women's legs?
Why are there women with naked legs sprawling on your couch?
I think that's kind of piggish... don't you?
Whatever you were trying to pull, it isn't funny
Why would you do that?
If I took pictures of men you would flip out
Remember that
Remember that next time you want to do something exploitative to make me feel bad
Sometimes you really are 12
You lied. You told me you were going to have a talk with your assistants and tell them to wear clothes when they are around and you didn't.
You don't see anything wrong with lying about everything, and the result is it's very difficult for me to trust anything you say.
For whatever reason you had, taking picture like that is a creepy old man thing to do
and there's no space for any of that in a marriage
And you still have to have a talk with assistants about wearing clothes when they are around you or I will.
Why did you take that sleazy picture?
Explain
Look, I don't understand why you do stuff like that
But it makes me not feel attracted to you at all
So if that was your goal, mission accomplished.
You're the one who did it, not me
You're the one who did it, and I don't understand why
You could have done anything, but what you chose to do, was post a picture of a girl's naked legs. Out of all the actions on earth, that's what you did
Sorry, it makes me feel grossed out by you
it's a normal reaction to your boyfriend taking sleazy pictures of naked legs and posting them on the internet
when he's barely contacted you in weeks
There's nothing more to say about this, I'll talk to you later
I just don't understand why you took that picture.
Maybe if you could explain why
I don't think you are a bad person... I love you, you know that. I wouldn't love you if you were bad.
I just know your ethics, and you don't think it's wrong to lie to or be unfair to people you consider to be "the walking dead".
I think you need to be honest and fair to all people, good or bad, because this is how you achieve true honesty.
I'm not perfect, but cheating an alcoholic and cheating the pope is the same to me.
And the clock thing really irritated me. And we'll have sexual time when I see you in person and not before
That is all...
Am I wrong?
I am merely trying to say that it isn't ok in my book to cheat people.
This includes you (you should be happy), it includes people who do right, and people who do wrong.
This is my opinion.
I am stuck in a very bad position where I have to keep up a lie about my living situation every day.
It is stupid.
I don't know what to do to end this.
Maybe you can tell me.
You are so quick to become defensive about yourself as an artist, I have no idea why, that has nothing to do with this whatsoever.
Also, I will never "war" you. That's just something you made up.
Ok?
I like how you act like I have made 0 progress.
You keep rubbing the same problem in my face and using it as an excuse like nothing has changed.
It's not a valid excuse anymore.
You're the one who fights and wars,
that's why you're so quick to assume that I'm doing it.
What I am doing is bringing to your attention that this situation is making me behave unethically.
Husband
Husbands and wives are supposed to be on the same team
Tell me what to do to get out of this unethical situation John.
We are a team and I am relying on your help.
I love you
Do you know what isn't working?
When I wonder about getting out of here... and you show me picture of a black person as if to say... "no no, don't count on it, you are sick, you have a problem"
No. I HAD a problem. And whatever shadow of a problem is left is actually INCREASED every time you do that.
By declaring this to still be a major problem, you are giving it power.
I'm trying to take power away from that ghost. You are feeding it by treating it like it is still the same as it was months ago.
I will repeat that I am in a very bad spot right now, where I have to lie everyday to the people in my household about my future, which is unclear to me. Will I be out by the first or won't I? I don't know.
They will potentially be out of over 1000 dollars and a living space for their mother. That's not ok with me.
You can be slow to accept progress sometimes I think, but you have to accept the reality of progress now. You can't keep telling me I have this horrible problem anymore when it isn't a horrible problem.
And honestly, by what logic do you think rubbing problems in my face would ever be helpful?
Don't get all defensive, just actually listen to what I said.
Speaking my point of view on a subject... especially a subject regarding me and my well being... doesn't make me a "cunt" or any other derogatory term.
Reducing me to a label like that in your mind, is like thinking I never have any independent intelligent thoughts worth sharing.
You're can be very difficult to talk to, and I know that anytime I disagree with you I will have to face a backlash of defensive behavior.
I'm going to say this one more time...
I don't HAVE a problem... I HAD a problem. There may be ghosts here and there... HOWEVER by acting like I have made no progress in this problem, and by rubbing this problem in my face you are giving it POWER
when the goal is to decrease it's POWER
that is all
and I still love you
The reason I get upset when you call me a name, is because it makes me feel like you don't understand me
If this isn't true than there is no problem
If it's cleaning day, I know a certain someone who needs to work on his anger management and always remember that we are on the same team.
That's what I would like cleaned, while we're on the subject.
You make me nervous because I feel like you are watching my every movement and waiting for me to fuck up.
Just waiting for it
It makes life feel very unnatural
If I'm ever wrong about any of this stuff just tell me,
because I see my end, and your end sometimes isn't so easy to see.
I'm so confused
All I want is to spend Christmas with you
If you don't think that's a good idea (or do you?) that's ok
But please tell me what to do about my living situation
I keep hearing all of these conflicting mixed messages and I don't know what they mean
Also, I only have 28 dollars
So many conflicting messages
I don't know what to do about my living situation
I've been asking you for weeks for help.
But you're not helping
If you were helping it would be different.
And I just want to finish this comic. I've been saying that all along... why aren't you listening to me?
I don't think it is a good habit to abandon things you start. No one is listening to that I am going to finish it and go back to what I am doing before.
I am so stressed out by you
because you don't listen or help.
You don't listen
You're in your own little world that doesn't include giving love and affection or listening to me
You don't believe in the power of love at all.
It shows
I fucking hate this. Everyone harasses and bugs me like they own my life, but where do I spend my time? In a room alone. They don't come visit or care I'm alone
Good ol me, always reliable, waiting at the computer to jump at their beckon call.
Who cares if I have to spend all my time alone and every holiday alone... everyone can overlokk that because I'm just some internet person. I don't exist beyond the internet as a person to anyone.
I think you guys are all being inhumane dicks about everything. No, I'm not going to do what you say all the time, fuck you
If you cared, you'd be here
You wouldn't just treat me like an internet person. I'm not an internet person here to follow your every command.
Sitting by the computer
You all take me for granted
Who gives a shit if the internet person spends Christmas alone
Who cares if the internet person has no money for food or a problem.
Who cares
Go away
Why don't you understand?
You can say nice things but unless you say them to me DIRECTLY, you are still treating me like a faceless internet person.
Anyone can say anything over the internet
It's not the same as saying it in person
It doesn't mean the same thing
It doesn't give the same feeling
Do you take me for a simpleton?
Do you think you can say a couple meaningless things and I'll forget this SERIOUS ISSUE in my life?
Having me isolated like this is CAUSING PROBLEMS and making everything WORSE not better.
You're too stubborn to see it
You're so stubborn and you don't listen
and you don't change when you promise you're going to
You just say a couple of meaningless things over the internet
Is that all you think I deserve?
and you aren't alone so don't have to deal with the feelings I have to deal with
and you even have a substitute woman to take with you wherever you go
and you don't even see what you are doing
you don't even see reality
because you refuse to see anything but "Johnworld" where you are always right
I could scream the truth in your face and you wouldn't hear it
I don't care what kind of box you put what I have been trying to tell you in
Or what fake reason or excuse you are trying to assign to it
But the bottom line is
That you don't listen
you "say" things constantly that show you don't listen.
Or you say meaningless things but your actions don't change.
I will not be ignored
or patronized
especially when I am trying to say truths that will improve everything
So call it what you want, but if you listened, things would be different.
love, the faceless internet
Johnny I saw your short with the turtle and the diamond... it was great
I loved it
You look really cute when you are smiling
Where are you?
What are you doing?
You know I'm waiting for you .
Are you with other people celebrating without me?
Of course you are
Why?
Of course you're going to get ice
You stood me up on Christmas Eve
All I wanted was to be with you as a family
and instead you are with other people
while I'm alone
You're having a nice time
at the expense of my time
and on top of all this you want me to be warm and affectionate to you?
You have a nice group of people to celebrate the holidays with
and even a substitute woman
I just don't understand why
You're not accomplishing anything positive with this
You don't make me feel loved or better about myself
You just make me feel left out
You don't believe in the power of love?
You believe in the power of cruelty
Enjoy your self(ish)
Why do you believe so strongly in the power of cruelty and so little in the power of love?
Your cure for everything is being cruel.
But you've never tried curing anything with love ever
Not once.
Also, things would be much different if you put your life where your mouth is.
If you spent the night alone, in solidarity, so you could feel how I feel.
But you don't. You go to parties and talk with other people.
I think that's weird.
I don't think you've ever spent this much time alone in your whole life.
I don't know John... I don't know why you don't believe in the power of love
Maybe you don't want to be married.
Maybe you think marriage and love and affection are like chocolate.
Something sweet but bad for you.
Is that how you feel?
You're so elusive that I don't really know you.
All I know is what I can piece together
But one of things I know for sure is that you believe in the power of isolation and cruelty and that I have to bear the brunt of it.
But you don't believe in the power of affection.
Many wise people do
but you don't
I don't know... rambling to this inbox is like talking to you
so I guess I am spending Christmas with you in a sense
Don't act like you didn't promise to come here
Why do you get so offended when I write to you on here?
I'm the one who got stood up!
You promised to come here and then you stood me up
and then you act all offended when I try to talk to you on the one channel I have
I want to talk to you in person
an it's true?
I don't get hugs or kisses
or affection
If I did, life would be much different
Ok, well I'll go and leave your inbox alone
your precious inbox
You care about your inbox more than you care about your wife
How am I supposed to ever talk to you?
I wouldn't leave messages here if I had another way to speak with you.
Look John, if we're getting married then I'm going to need a way to talk to you
It's unfair to expect me to do everything your way all the time
Maybe talking to you makes me feel more comfortable.
And sometimes you need to hear what I have to say
and I don't want to be alone an Christmas. I spent half the day making you a card...
I'm all alone in this house and I just want to talk to you
Things would have been so much better if you had just come here tonight.
Well, I hope you come tomorrow
I don't know if this is true or not, but sometimes I feel like you are afraid to see me, and that's why you keep making up all these excuses not to.
Look, if you have a problem with something I'm doing, they way I work is... if you just tell me in person, it's much more effective. Just not showing up on Christmas is so vague, it's not an effective problem-solver. And it makes me feel sad because I want to spend time with you.
Hearing someone you love speak to you in person is very very powerful, and can have a very strong positive effect.
and I like talking to you, even if you don't say anything back because it makes me feel close to you.
It's how I get rid of worries and solve problems.
If I have a worry and I say it, then it ceases to be just stuck in my mind, and then it loses it's power.
I know you are different, but that's how I work.
That's why it's really important that I have a way to talk to you.
Please come here tomorrow. Come early. Let's spend Christmas together.
Or just intimidate me
My husband
If you think that card is childish I won't give it to you
Thanks for critiquing your gift
Husbands and wives are on the same team
I made you a pencil drawing for Christmas because you have been wanting me to draw in pencil
and you called it childish
I thought when someone made you a gift you were supposed to say thank you
If you think I'm so childish all the time, then maybe you would be better off with someone your own age
Merry Christmas
Sometimes I wonder why I'm with you
You're such a dick to me all the time
And you don't get nicer
You just keep doing mean thoughtless things all the time
and putting me down constantly
Maybe you should be alone
Since you act so unwelcoming to me
and you DO try to intimidate me and push me around
I have to consciously stand up to you all the time
I don't know if you realize that or not
Husbands and wives are on the same team
If you don't want to hear my words
don't marry me
because I want a husband I can talk to
You really hurt my feelings when you critiqued my Christmas card
can't you ever just say "thank you for caring about me"
Do you think about how your snarky attitude affects the people around you in a negative way?
Goodnight, and don't be surprised if 3 ghosts visit you tonight when you go to bed.
Hopefully I'll see you in the morning
http://www.johnkstuff.blogspot.com/search/label/Christmas
You've been a real jerk tonight to me
At one point tonight, I felt really good about you
but then you had to go do something horrible
That's what you seem to forget, that you start all of this by doing something horrible.
You stood me up when you promised you were coming
and then insulted the card I made for you
You act like I just act all negative out of the blue
I'm not 59
and I like to have someone I can talk to
You think everything has to be your way all the time and that's selfish
Husbands and wives are supposed to be on the same team
Hi, John.
I'm showing Space Madness and Stimpy's Invention tomorrow to my animation class as examples of staggers and takes. Thanks for providing such great semi-recent material and keeping broad animation standards alive.
Much love,
Ashanti
Aye Caramba!
It's fitting that Elana is using the name Brent Robbie. When I used to hang out with her, I was surprised by how vehemently feminist she was. Then I realized she just wanted to be a man.
- trevor.
Good God! This girl is straight scary. Physcho
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